so fucking miserable.

i cant stop crying every time i manage to stop myself it just bursts out of me again a few minutes later. my mind just likes to torture me. and my eyes are like broken dams. 

this is so horrible. i need to go to school later but i’m not sure if it will help distract me from everything and temporarily lift my mood a little or if it will just knock me more sick and it will all be so difficult trying to keep a hold of myself in front of everybody when all i really feel like doing is repeatedly slitting myself open.

:(