fighting depression with pink lipstick and sports bras 

i was gonna go the gym but er for reasons that involve some amount of tmi i didnt, i did a little work out in my room though and feel a bit better than before i started it too. this LA gear sports bra is so nice and comfy haha i love it. i havent done like any proper cardio in it yet though so…i’ll let you know how effective it is when i wear it to the gym sometime. :’) 

sooo i think i’ll do my french translation thingy in a min after i put clothes on. yes i did work out in my underwear. and it made me feel fabulous. i get so self-conscious and ultimately even depressed about how much i hate my body but i always like it when i work out because it’s probably the best its ever been in terms of curves tehe and muscles too. and if i cant like my body then how do i expect anyone else to? in fact i wouldnt even want anyone else to if i dont because then i have to jump from person to person being depend on their validation of my body and that’s just not healthy i want to be able to validate myself and not have anybody else do it for me because what authority do they over me anyway? none. 

i cant believe i even managed to rant when i was just posting a random gpoy. oh well. hmmm i am very sure i will be back in school tomorrow morning. sometimes i just need some time out i guess.